
D.'s been in Israel since Wednesday, so yesterday Kiki came to play with the babies, and the two big kids and I got hot dogs and went to our favorite playground, the "boat" playground. It isn't a very fancy playground, but it does have a nice, moody feel to it, what with a colorful boat-thing with slides and ladders on it, and an amazing view out onto the water (appropriately enough) and a slightly spooky grove which Naomi likes to visit... It always brings out the mama wanderlust, and we play games involving departing ships and long sea journeys to far-flung lands with interesting animals not found in suburbs. I flatter myself, but I think the reason the kids like this playground so much, and not better ones I can think of, is because it makes me play. We always end up going there in the late afternoon or early evening, and there is no better place to be in the whole world than a westward-facing Mercer Island playground at dusk.
On the way home, Ezra suddenly insisted that he had gone on a field trip this year (apropos of nothing, as if speaking to an imaginary doubter), and described it, in his funny, preachy way: How we got to Bowling was, we went on some real bumpy roads, and then made some turns, and got to some smooth roads, and then we got there. (Mapquest that, baby.) And I used real heavy bowling balls, not kid ones. And the things, the things you were supposed to hit, they all went down into this tunnel that went under the ground. And then I went again. (Mom: were you good at it?) I was pretty good. (Mom: Were you the best? - nevermind that mom should definitely shut up.) No, Shem Tov was.
What's so funny is, I distinctly remember Ezra coming home from the field trip grumpy and withdrawn, and it took all of 3 seconds for me to figure out it was because he hadn't been as competent as he's used to being, or as some other kid was. Already, life is hard... I almost always forget how hard it was for me to be five and six (possibly because I was thrust into 1st grade straight from nursery school). Just thinking about it now makes me feel utterly helpless and at the mercy of pitiless forces outside of me. However, when it was good, it was very, very good... to be young.